Tonight’s conversation with Peter made me realize a few things of which I can feel absolutely and wholly within my heart:
I have come leaps and bounds already.
I was immature and unhealthy this past year.
I love Peter McCann wholly and truly and deeply. More than I’ve ever loved anyone else…but most importantly…most honestly. Such a true and complete love that I genuinely want what’s best for him…whether that includes him ending up with me or not. It is finally unselfish. I’ve never known such a feeling as this. I feel complete without him and blissful with him. I feel we have genuinely had a impact on one another for the better…and I don’t need his love to survive…but I know I will never stop loving him.
I can love him without needing him.
We have a genuine and true connection. That was never in my head. That was entirely real.
Saying I love you should never be a weapon or a contract or even a vow. Love is beyond such petty ties. Love is free.
I don’t need a relationship right now.
Love is never wrong.
And everything is going to be alright.
I feel incredible. Empowered. Karma is finally catching up with me.
This world is round. And love is free.
And so am I.