And in a moment…it’s all over. It’s hard to wrap my mind around. Leaving the Janus Players. My world. My life. My home. And yet…I have no regrets. Not one. I poured my heart and my soul into that stage…cherished and savored every last moment…from Into the Woods to Neverland. I found my heart in that theatre and I found myself in Wendy. Peter Pan was the perfect show to end on. Perfect. And there was this moment yesterday…standing on the stairs…and all I could see was every light in the theatre blaring into my eyes and all I could feel was tears rolling down my cheeks and my heart just breaking and spilling out of every pore in my body. And I could feel and taste and see the magic. I was a part of everything. And I was alive. And I was still there. And the world just seemed to make sense. And there were no more walls. No more fear. And in that moment…I grew up. I have become the person I’ve always wanted to be. I’ve bloomed. And I can fly. I have no regrets.

We’ll always have Neverland…but truly…to live would be an awfully big adventure. And it’s my time now.

Second to the right and straight on till morning.


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