abyss, and common sense tells us that our existence is but a brief
crack of light between two eternities of darkness.”
– Vladimir Nabokov
I don’t know. I thought it was a cool quote.
Sigh. Today was intense. Let me see……..math…oh so much fun. i
really love that class. um. then driver’s ed…and i was falling asleep
obscenely…and aaaahaha the whole class was about DUI’s…and my dad
got a DUI…and nehlig was just going on and on about how “They’re
criminals…and they get arrested, handcuffed, and put behind bars like
everyother common criminal…” and for some reason…i was just
laughing my head off. i think the whole class was like wtf.
then….english. whoa. english happened? i dont recall. boring. cip
sucks. activities…i dont remember at all. chem…bleh. bleh-y. then
lunch was fairly interesting…furlong was randomly like saying i loved
campbell…because i was apparently being “mean” and…i dont
know…its a long story i guess. but it was strange. camps was flipping
out at first randomly…but then he calmed down. i duno. i dont
remember. i think he was saying he hated me or something or…i dont
know. french was boring and in the comp lab again. and i dont even know
what i did that period. then i had history which was an easy quiz and
then sitting around…and for some reason…i was overtaken with memory
of SMP and i burst into laughter in the middle of the quiz…cuz
campbell was sitting right there…remembering…er…that night with
kerr….and ahahaha. and after that. and i was laughing so hard to
myself. i think im seriously insane. and then we were writing about the
panic of 1870 or something…and i…without thinking…wrote Panic! of
1870 on my notes…and taht made me burst into laughter too. Mmm. Good
stuff. Then last period was really funny. Me and amy and jackie hung
out…and i randomly without thinking said something really stupid and
jackie had a huge laughing fit for like 12 minutes straight. it was a
good day for laughing. then we hit up bush’s room. then we used piel’s
water machine to make hot chocolate and attempted to hide in camps
locker. twas a good period.
then after school……campbell was randomly being really nice…and
actually talking to me…and randomly saying he’s going to godspell.
strange strange man. i guess you had to be there. then i got a classic
and amazing massage from jmo. and raped connor. and hung around for a
bit. and then at 3:30….i……ACTUALLY went to rehearsal. amazing. im
really glad i went…even though it was like a waste of time since they
just did a cue to cue…i’m really really regretting now…that i
didn’t really partake in it…i chose not to be involved…and im
really regretting that now. and at least wishing i could have been in
it. i knew it would happen if i came back. oh well. the show opens in 2
days…which is absolutely absurd. and i havent even seen it through
once. shocking. it was fun though. jackie gets to stand on the
booth…which…im not gonna lie…is pretty wicked awesome.
then i went and hung out with bob and rob and steph…and for some
reason……..actually…touched rob. ok i know that sounds
weird…especially coming from me…but it was the first time in 5
months or more that i had voluntarily and knowingly touched him…i
mean he came up and was like fighting over the tie thing…and like
holding his tie out for me to feel it…and normally i would have…but
it was like rob…so i sort of ignored it…and then he’s like “feel
right here”….and i did. see wow. i sound so retarded dont i? but if
you only knew how far we’ve come…things are getting SO much better
now. and i really like the way its ending too. because neither one of
us has the power either. that was always the problem. neither one of us
has suddenly “decided to talk to the other”…and relinquished the
other…but we’ve both slowly forgiven each other. sweet.
then i had dinner with mark and bob. it was awesome. except when bob
left…my natural habit was to say “i love you”…but i suddenly
halfway thru realized it wasnt a good thing to say…so i tried to make
it into some strange word….so it came out like “i lovtuberblontewugh
you” hahaha it was so funny. im awful. then mark and i had fun. teehee.
we did his laundry together…which im not gonna lie…was so much fun.
mark and i have just SO much fun together. its absurd. haha. it was
awkward though…cuz i was like sorting through his boxers. mmm good
stuff. but i got to put the XTREME tide in. yesss. and then he crushed
me cuz i was making fun of him. and then we went and hung around and
went to poe. and we randomly ran into camps twice…an dit was
weird…cuz we totally werent stalking him…just randomly running into
him…..and kerr. whatever. campbell had a totally weird moment in poe
when i was asking everyone if they loved me and camps is like “I’m not
gonna lie…………….I don’t hate you.” Weirdest thing ever. The
boy is unstable.
Then Mark and I went down to the school and hung out…hahaha we went
in the elevator and talked for like an hour. so much fun. and we were
like lying onthe floor of the elevator on top of each other. so cute. i
love the boy. so much. then um. i guess i went home. at like 8. and um.
i guess. didnt really do anything. i dont know.
I’m such a waste of sperm.
I didn’t get ANY work done today.
The boy is so fucking cute. We’re teetering. It’ll be so worth the wait if we ever take the plunge.
Tomorrow is Wednesday…and. Well. We all know what that means….
Random crap survey…then off to bed.
tallest: bob. hands down.
shortest: christina? i dont know. oh. melissa. definately that one.
no one’s that funny haha. everyone cracks me up though. jeremy is
hilarious. actually…id probably say lucy obus wins. alix is pretty
most boring: um. i can think of a few…
bitchiest: heh. you dont want me to say it aloud.
hottest: oh definately……..jackie.
most trustworthy: hm. maybe jackie. or like…um. mat? sudoben. in general.
loudest: hm. me? …….cant think…jmo sometimes actually. cant…think…of…someone…good. like…jess nixon or something.
quietest: hm. sara? i know i can think of someone.
saddest: saddest? in what sense? like most emo? i dont know…maybe melissa.
craziest: what a question. um. no idea how to answer that.
stupidest: haha bowman or something like that
most caring: hmmm. good one. mat? emlyn…
most uncaring: campbell.
someone to just act stupid around: markkk. or jmo. i adore them. plus like…jackie.
sluttiest: heh. me. or…christina…or leg.
poserish: um. everyone? i can think of someone…but i dont want to say it either
laziest: ok definately me. but other than that…it’d go to jackie and mark.
most athletic: um. duno. i go to hun.
most poetic: hmm. ERICA! whom i ADORE.
bestest singer: ooo. SARAH. sarah. and um. jenn jacobs. or. basically anyone that kicks ass and is in godspell.
who will die alone: campbell.
who will die a virgin: kerr. kerr.
loneliest: mmm. not sure.
least favorite: cant say…i dont know…theres a few people…maybe…steph.
your most unlike: hmmmm. bowman?
your most like: emlyn.
scariest: haha. actually melissa doesn’t scare me. maybe bob. ahaha. or just rob.