The last day. The last time we’ll EVER get to do this. I didn’t think
this day would ever come. I prayed this day would never come. But here
we are…so I guess I have to make the most of it.
Getting a standing ovation made me cry…Two nights in a row.
I want to cherish this day forever. Two shows…I’m gonna be exhausted.
But this has been the most incredibly exhilarting thing that has
happened to me and I never want to forget a moment. But tonight…poof.
After all we’ve done…just…gone. And I can’t handle that. These
moments, these people…have meant the world.
“Even if it only lasts from one night to the next, it’s worth the world.”
Gotta go soon…the show is growing near…Next time I write…it’ll all be over.
And that was it. Probably one of the most memorable days of my life. Let me write it down so I don’t forget.
It started off innocently enough…got there around 11:30…2:00 show.
Wandered around…I still didn’t feel too sad…But it was upsetting
since it was our last day. We started getting ready…taking lots of
pics…Running around…Makeup…costumes…teehee…tattoes. Then I
think we went on stage a little. Conor’s a beast. Fun fun. Then
uhhhh…Then the warm up…yesss…we went down to the bio room…and
we did our warm up…so much fun. Paul looked sexy. And the
1121123211234321123454321 (wow thats fun to write) was AWESOME. I
finally got it. and i love it. Welly was ontop of the table dancing and
dan was doing the robot…anyway…it was real fun. and we were
clapping. then they sang tonight and they got all pumped haha. took
pictures of that…ill be sure to get them up soon. anyway…warming up
was funnnnn…and exciting…then the squeeze…wish i’d gotten a
picture of it. it really is magical.
The first show went well I think. I love all of the numbers I’m
in…it’s just so much fun. I don’t recall anything horrible in
particular…I think Matt prolly cracked…but that’s alright…we love
him anyway. Standing ovation. It’s really moving. K so then…we got out and I think some people came…I
think it was the Tine gang…then we had our AMAZING make shift cast
party in Raiford’s room. It was a hoot.
Now paul knows i have raiford. im weird. anyway. it was SOOO funny. i
was sitting there and i started singing krupke under my breathe and 5
minutes later we have the entire cast in the room singing it at the top
of their lungs. good times. then chrissy and i started singing Your
Fault and then dan started singing it hahaha…GOOD times.
I’m gonna miss him like no other.
Then we went in Mr. Heyden’s (sp?) room and watched opening night. It
was so much fun. We made fun of each other and were yelling and
laughing. I love em. And when Matt was singing Tonight dan and jon were
was hilarious. eric was joining in. man that kid is scurry. Anyway…it
was a blast…and then paul was raping caroline lolol. awww.
“THAT’S WONDERFUL!”- gotta love jonny d.
Then we had to get ready for the second show already. It went by real quick.
There certainly was an aura. An aura of superb mastery of holding back
tears. An aura of everyone putting every ounce of energy in their body
into avoiding admitting the fact that this was the last time we would
EVER be doing this. The last time we would EVER be the same. The last
time we would EVER be together. We’d grown so close. And we were about
to ripped apart…and we knew it. Oh…we certainly were good actors.
“A war council and he goes to the MOVIES!”- more wonderful jonny
We put on our costumes for the last time. Put on our makeup for the
last time. Our mics. Our tattoes. Our shoes. And two months worth of
emotion came spilling out. It was finally real. I was a mess. A big old
mess. But I didn’t actually start crying until we got down to the warm
up room. This was the last time we’d ever warm up together…and I
wasn’t willing to let it go. The only one I could see that was remotely
as sad as me was Jen…and she had more of a reason I suppose. Then we
all had to sing Somewhere. I just couldn’t do it. Words wouldn’t come
out. It was too painful. Especially that song. Then came the final
squeeze. We did it in the dark and it was the first time I’d cried in a
while…and the start of a fit of crying that didn’t stop for about 3
hours. Ms. Ohm told us how proud she was of us…And tears were rolling
down my cheeks onto my shirt. I could hear Ms. Ohm’s voice cracking.
She really is irreplaceable. I was holding Dr. Byer’s hand and there
was dead silence as it went around…the only thing you could hear was
my sniffles and tears. In the darkness. Then I ran up so no one would
Dan asked everyone to sign his poster and I wrote “You suck-LS” on
it…I don’t quite know why…and I kinda wish I hadn’t now. He was
just being weird…He’ll prolly think I’m weird now. Oh well, I am.
Instead of doing the energy ball exercise…which would have had me in
cardiac arrest…Ms. Ohm had Dan do something…which was a good idea
cuz it was fun. lolol. So it was called like Go or something…and u
stand in a circle and say go and point to someone and then they have to
say go to someone else and it goes on and on. so we were having fun and
then dan’s like ok now u just have to say whatever comes to mind, even
if it’s tit. lol so then we’re going and there’s people screaming all
sorts of things teehee like poop, crack,
penis…potato…AAAAAH….cleavage (at jess)…hahaha and then Matt
points to Caroline and goes “SLLLLLLLLLLLLUT!” hahahahahahahaha it was
hilarious. ummmm ya so that was fun…paul asked me what i thought of
it as we were walking and i felt special. he used my name. i love it
when he does that.
He’s still such a mystery.
This is gonna take me a while to write all this. Ok so then…it was
just about time for the last show to start. It was unbelievably sad
watching it…Knowing every line…every second…was the last time
we’d ever do it. After all the work. I still remember seeing it the
first time…Oh well…I’ll live.
Sooooo…we had a little………plan. That’d we been scheming. For
those EVIL guys who stole the good dressing room. MWA HA HA HA HA.
Alright so when they were all in the prologue we infultrated the room
and took it over. MWA HA HA. *evil laugh* We put TONS on streamers
everywhere and toilet paper alllll over. lololol it was AMAZING. Then
we took ALL of their clothes (except costumes) and hid them behind a
desk…hahahahaha…it was so much fun. Then signed the door “Girls
were here” and all kissed it with our lipstick on. It was AWESOME.
Kudos to lucy. It was beastin. Let me tell uuuu.
The guys got back and thought it was funny. Teehee. Jonny threatened to
get back at us but they couldn’t think of anything. BOO. We win. It’s
going to be a lifelong tradition haha. We started it. woot.
Dance at the gym was fun for one last time…I loved our little fights
we had. Then I put on that hideous purple dress for one last time…and
cool for one last time…Awww. I’m gonna miss both of them.
Then I became a silly little mess again…Crying every 30 seconds as I
was about to do somewhere. It was sad! …Or maybe I’m just a pathetic
softie. That’s prolly it.
Hmmm…Somewhere was beautiful…I was trying SO hard not to cry. It
was the last time I’d ever do it…I really will miss it. It was
probably the most beautifully, captivating…magical things I’ve ever
done. Incredible. I never wanted to leave that stage. However…I have
to say…I won’t miss dancing with Hindle.
I NEEEED TO FINISH THIS LATER.
“Just play it big with the baby bluesss…big not scared, big!” -dannny
Then I watched Dan’s scene and Officer Krupke for the last time. I
really don’t know how I’m going to live without it. I remember the
first time I saw it. Aw. They were amazing. Really amazing. Balcony buddies one last time. KRUP YOU.
“HEY YOU. YEAAAAAA YOU. Give me one good reason for not draggin ya down to the station house…ya punk!”- johnnnnny
“Society’s played him a terrible TRICK!!!”- dannnny
Then it was time to get ready for the last scene. I was such a little
mess. Dan was playing the itsy bitsy spider up angela’s leg. fun. But
right before we were about to go on, I wasnt feeling teary anymore…i
was pissed becuase i was crying so well before…and when i needed to i
couldn’t. Then it was time.
I walked on and suddenly it came pouring out. The first time I’d
actually been able to cry on stage. Oh it was bad…michelle wrapped
her arms around me and we cried together through the whole scene. the
last time we’d ever do it. this once in a lifetime moment…and it
would never come back. it was finally over. Everyone was crying…and I
walked off one last time without even looking back…crying so hard. I
cried through our curtain call and we did it. One last standing
ovation. And it was complete. And I’ve never felt such painful
happiness. We all held hands and I could feel the bond surging through
us. Then we simply…walked…off. And there it is…gone.
It took me at least an hour to stop crying. I looked like such a fool.
It felt good to be surrounded by so many people crying though…so many
people that cared just as much about it as you did. Most of the seniors
weren’t crying…i think they were in denile…or simply didn’t want to
admit it was over…or knew that if they did start crying…they
wouldn’t stop. Matt was the only one…and I thought it was so
touching…He cried for as long as I did…maybe longer. I cried with
everyone and it felt…very human. I’ll never forget it. Christina and
I were the only one’s crying after a while…But I think after a while
I was only crying so that I could get Paul to hug me…and to get it
all out…which worked…because then I didn’t really cry once I got
home. I hugged Ms. Ohm and Lisa goodbye…I was crying…I love them. I
never did get Paul to hug me…But I guess I’ll just wait till
graduation…I need to tell him I’ll miss him too. I need to tell him
so many things…
I went out to say hi to everyone, but I was such a mess that I couldn’t
even do it…so I never got to see rob and campbell and jmo. It’s
alright, I would cried all over them. After our final partings…we
were all going to go to Wineberries for dinner. My mom drove christina
and I…this is where the story gets wild.
When we got there…we saw the huge group of sexy people walking down
nassau and they told us they were going to panera…so my mom dropped
us off and was going to pick us up later…it was amazing there was
like 20 of us walking down the streets of princeton singing West Side
Story. We did the snapping thing which was so much fun and then sang
the Jet song…Paul was sexy. It was so much fun…I’ll never forget
it. Panera was closed…Triumph kicked us out..we were too rowdy…so
we decided to go somehwere out of princeton. teehee…lauren never told
her mommy where she was. there was confusion and lauren and christina
jumped in engels car with richard. mwa ha ha. we were gonna go with dan
but then we didn’t. we stopped by hun and then went to Hooters. lolol
it was hilarious. we’re driving in engel’s car…rap music BLARING like
no other…the cars like bouncing up and down, no seatbelts…engels
got no hands on the wheel and he’s on his cell phone…then he’s
telling us about the 3 car accidents he got in. lol. it was wild. i
felt very high school. plus its like 11 oclock on sunday night. woot.
So we got to hooters and wooooo it was fun…lets seee….me, chris,
jen, caroline, lucy, dan, welly, derek, richard, aj, engel, jonny,
luke, matt, and nick…i think there was more…i dont remember. dan
was singing songs…there was a picture of hooters pins..and one with a
girl on a rocket…”Got a rocket…in your vagina”…he’s so silly…i
don’t remember what dan said but jen goes “oh shut up mr. never having
even…” and dan gave her an evil look…hehe i think thats a good sign
for me. jonny’s hilarious…he was trying to get the hooters girl’s
number…and he told her it was jen’s birthday…she asked something
about his birthday suit…then they wanted them to buy a shirt…it was
weird…hahahaha there was the most amazing picture of luke
we got curly fries and wings and mmmm it was really good. caroline had
to leave…then danny…curfew. adorable. he wasnt even gonna go to
hooters…but he did. sexy. we had the strangest mix up with dan before
we went…*cough*…anyway…hooters was really fun…alot of the guys were smoking…it was beastin…then the funniest
thing…we called my mom from hooters and we’re like…ummmm…we’re at
the princetonian…and she’s like howd u get there? and we’re like
uhhhh engel drove us….trust me he’s a really good driver…haha…she
was upset and then after a while she was fine and then we’re like ok so
he’s gonna drop us off at hun…and she’s like how bout I just pick you
up and we’re like NO! its ok…really. lolol. that wud suck if she had
insisted on picking us up and we’re like ummmmm actuallllly…we’re at
hooters….forgot to mention that….teehee
We drove back at midnight in engel’s sexiness…it was so much fun…a
night to remember…and a start to a partying high school life. I would
have taken pictures…but then my momma would have known that we went
to hooters…teehee. I love them. I wish that night would have neevr
ended. But it did…and I was exhausted. We drove Christina
home…crawled into bed…and said goodbye one final time…
I remember the first day. And the excitement. I was amazed to actually
get to do West Side Story. It was a gift. And I remember it all so
clearly. And I remember the doubt. Well guess what? We did it. We
pulled it off. And now we’re here already.
I really wish I had written more of last week now. Oh well…Those moments are lost now.
I’m gonna miss Officer Krupke…so bad. And Somewhere.
What a day. What a month. What an experience. It’s been
incredible…and I know I’ll never forget it…but I also know that
“Someday…somehow…We’ll find a new way of living.” And that’s the
sad part…I don’t want to let it go. I know I can. I know I can stop
crying. I know I can move on. I know I can do other musicals and love
other people…I just wish I didn’t have to. I wish time would stop. I
want to thank you from the bottom of my heart…For letting me be a
part of this journey…and I’ll never forget it. I wish I could tell
you how much it meant to me…
Enough now. It’s time to close the book. “Wonderful.”